Changing tides

As a fresh graduate, I have been taught to just 'roll with the punches' as the veteran players say. And at seven months into the game, I have figured out (more or less) how the game is played, how to keep from losing, and how to maintain the pretty (of course).

But despite the months and the relative comfort I find in my current job, that existential pursuit of happiness never seems to leave my side. Yesterday, I got a call from one of the TOP corporate companies in the Philippines. And I'm not kidding when I say, top. So obviously I agreed to be interviewed because seriously, only a fool would turn down this opportunity (think salary, COMPENSATION, benefits, etc. etc.) As if that wasn't cool enough, literally two minutes after I had confirmed with company 1, company 2 calls...this time a broadcast network. I was hesitant to confirm with this one considering I had already turned down a job with them to take my post as a Staff Writer. But I said yes anyway, who knows, they could be offering something new? Best keep all doors and windows open right?

For love or money?

Through a fresh graduate's eyes, they would probably think the world of me-what with two major companies knocking on my door (and note, I didn't even submit my resume or follow up whatsoever). But things start to change when you're actually in my shoes-having gotten the job you've dreamed of since High School. Deciding to leave it is painful mos def. I know I haven't held my post for so long but I feel like I've grown so much and I've actually learned to enjoy my job despite the lack of benefits and sweldo.

Corporate white collar puppetry will be the DEATH of me

When I think of leaving, I think of the monetary value. But at the same time, the question of whether or not I will be happy is always there. I love where I am because I don't work the 9-5, and I'm not one of those corporate slaves who do the same thing day in and day out for the rest of their lives. At the same time, I can't live on *insertxamountofmoneyhere* a month. Plus, a lot of people would literally kill for my job and I keep thinking: "What if I want to go back? Will I still get the job?"

It may not look like much, but this is happiness right here.

Maybe I should learn how to pray again. Thinking too much makes me eat and that's not really good for my figure (LOL). At the same time, I should probably embrace change and take it as a sign of growth? DAMN. WWJD??

xx,

Ri.